Moving on

I’m moving on,

Yes, I’m finally moving on,

I can finally feel the blood surge through my legs,

Which had become numb from standing for so long,

In the place where you had abandoned me,

I’m finally shedding all the memories I had been treasuring up

Through all these years,

Which I thought we could share to our future kids,

Over the sunset we could see from the tree house we built together

I’m finally breaking the invisible bars of the cage I had locked myself in,

The bars being stronger than iron, because they were made out of my love for you,

As each bar breaks, it sends bright, dazzling sparks into the sky,

Resembling the hypnotizing fireflies…

I feel a strange sense of pain

As the warm air of freedom hit the bottom of my lungs,

But this pain is sweet, differing so much from the pain

I experienced  when you said, “This isn’t working”

I sprinted a little, awkwardly; blushing like never before,

Swirled around and did my favourite moves,

As I hummed the songs you always skipped

When we listened to my playlist.

Pardon me for all the times I blamed you for not loving me enough,

For all the mornings, I cursed you for the sleepless nights and swollen eyes,

For all the moments, when I used the worst swear words on you because you ignored me.

Oh! You did no wrong, no wrong at all,

You are the dew drops that got evaporated a little too early,

You are those twinkling stars in the night sky I can never finish counting,

You are the faint, sweet nostalgic music I always listen to,

But whose source I can never find.

It was me; it was me, all the time,

Who did all the wrong things right,

Who poured love into a vessel that was already overflowing,

Who kept searching for the orchids in the desert,

Oh! I had been such a fool, begging for love,

When I had abundance of it within me, all this while…

So, yes, I’m moving one,

I’m finally moving on,

Not because I found a better person,

But because I’ve gone through enough,

Because I have dropped enough chunks of my heart, in the letter box you rarely opened,

Because I neglected the love of the ones who always stayed by my side

Because I want to experience the little joys that I had almost forgotten,

Because I choose my happiness over you, over us,

Of course, there’s still a part of you that I can’t let go,

But that’s a sweet heaviness my heart would always want to carry…

I’m moving on,

Yes, I’m finally  moving on…